| i have a dependent personality disorder... |
[10 Mar 2004|05:00pm] |
*has difficulty making everyday decisions without an excessive amount of advice and reassurance from others
*needs others to assume responsibility for most major areas of his or her life
*has difficulty expressing disagreement with others because of fear of loss of support or approval. Note: Do not include realistic fears of retribution.
*has difficulty initiating projects or doing things on his or her own (because of a lack of self-confidence in judgment or abilities rather than a lack of motivation or energy)
*goes to excessive lengths to obtain nurturance and support from others, to the point of volunteering to do things that are unpleasant
*feels uncomfortable or helpless when alone because of exaggerated fears of being unable to care for himself or herself
*urgently seeks another relationship as a source of care and support when a close relationship ends
*is unrealistically preoccupied with fears of being left to take care of himself or herself
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4keep lieing - i'm beautiful.
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[09 Mar 2004|07:30pm] |
______OPINIONS______
1. Am I cute:
2. Am I hot:
3. Am I sweet:
4. Am I crazy:
5. Am I loveable:
6. Am I funny:
7. Am I annoying:
8. Am I psycho:
9. Am I daring:
10. Am I a good person:
11. Am I sexy:
______WOULD YOU...______
11. Hug me:
12. Miss me if I was gone:
13. Listen to my problems:
14. Hug me if i cried:
15. Be a good friend:
______WOULD YOU...______
16. Ever go out with me:
17. If you already have would you do it again:
18. Kiss me:
19. Have rough sex with me:
20. Marry me if you could:
______HOW WELL DO YOU KNOW ME?______
21. When's my birthday:
22. How tall am I:
23. What school do I go to:
24. Do i have any siblings ~> names:
25. Who is my most current ex:
26. Who is my best friend:
27. Who am i crushing on/dating:
28. Favorite animal:
29. Favorite food:
30. Favorite TV show:
31. Favorite song/songs:
32. Favorite music group:
______IF YOU COULD______
36. Give me a new name, what would it be and why:
37. Hook me up with someone (real), who would it be and why:
38. Do one thing with me what would it be and why:
39. Drop me one piece of advice, what would it be:
_____JUST A FEW QUESTIONS_____
40.What do you love about me:
41. What do you hate about me(seriously):
42. What is my best quality:
43. If you could change one thing about me what would it be:
44. What is your honest opinion about me:
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2keep lieing - i'm beautiful.
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| im not special |
[04 Mar 2004|07:23pm] |
why dont i get my hopes up
just to be shot down....
i could be somewhere else right now. but i believed you and im here alone. atleast ur having fun. if it makes you happy it cant be that bad.
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1keep lieing - i'm beautiful.
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| im not special |
[04 Mar 2004|07:23pm] |
why dont i get my hopes up
just to be shot down....
i could be somewhere else right now. but i believed you and im here alone. atleast ur having fun. if it makes you happy it cant be that bad.
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i'm beautiful.
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| do you realize.... |
[04 Mar 2004|06:51pm] |
today was such a lazy day for me. i was so excited to sleep. then railey came and was liek talking up a storm. shes wack. yesterday i went job hunting with karyl and we have an interview at mcdonalds tomarrow..isnt that exciting..hehe. i wanna apply at hollywood video too they have this long ass application tho on a computer. maybe my bf will take me. i dunno. i need to get my birth certificate. maybe ryan will wanna go see along came polly it looks good. i feel like playing pool tho so maybe we will just hang out at alexs. well im gonna go get ready ahve a super day kids. oh and i scheduled for next year wanna hear it.
Creative Writing
Wester Civ.
Fibers and Jewelry
Independent Study Ceramics
Humanities
Human Relationships
Current Events
AP Chemistry
Spanish 4
and
Lit. and Film
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i'm beautiful.
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[01 Mar 2004|09:26pm] |
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. What is your name? Jessica
2. How old are you? 17
3. When do you turn a year older? January 26,2005
4. What year were u born? 1987
5. What is your sign? Aquarius
6. Where do you live? Center Line
7. What school do you go to? CLHS
8. Graduation year? 2005
9. Do you play any sports? I am a Cheerleader. Part-time
10. What class do you get the best grades in? Chemistry and Marketing
11. Who are your parents? Debbie and Rodney.
12. Who lives in your house? Me, Cory, Susan, Mom and Dad
13. Do you have any pets? A Kitty Named Blue
14. Is your room in the basement, upper floor, or ground level? Its on the Upper Floor
15. What color is your room? its a really ugly peach regan put on years ago
16. How many tv's are in your entire house? 4
17. Do you have a tv in your room? Yup a new one
18. Do you have any brother's or sister's? 2 brothers and 2 sisters. only one brother is living tho.
19. If yes, names and age? Regan-25, Susan-19, Cory-15 and Michael died when he was 22.
20. Do you have a lot of pictures in your house of all the family? umm..alot of michael and the family
21. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Yes Both
-22. What is their name? Ryan- 19 and Bridgette-19(lol)
23. Do you have a crush? I guess you could say i have a crush on my bf.
24. What is their name? Ryan. duh!
25. How many times have you kissed a boy/girl? boys- 6 or 7 and girls 5.
26. Would you prefer a hug or a kiss? both
27. What is the best hair color for your guy/girl? either really blond or really dark
28. What colors eyes do you love to look into? dark brown or greenish
List 10 of your favorite songs...
1. All-American Rejects- One More Sad Song
2. Jimmy Eat World- Hear You Me
3. Jimmy Eat World- Get It Faster
4. Blink 182- Feeling This
5. Blink 182- Obvious
6. Blink 182- I Miss You
7. Fefe Dobson- Stupid Little Love Song
8. The Early November- All We Ever Needed
9. Dashboard Confessional- If You Can't Leave It Be, Might As Well Make It Bleed
10. Taking Back Sunday- You're So Last Summer
List 9 of your favorite bands...
Yellowcard
Dashboard Confessional
Taking Back Sunday
The Starting Line
The Early November
Midtown
Slick Shoes
Britney Spears ( not really a band but hey)
Fefe Dobson (ditto)
List 8 of your favorite movies...
1. Dirty Dancing
2. The Newsies
3. Big Fish
4. A League of Their Own
5. Pirates of The Caribbean
6. The Little Mermaid
7. Lord of the Rings Trilogy
8. Office Space
List 7 of your favorite actors/actresses...
1. Orlando Bloom
2. Angelina Jolie
3. Johnny Depp
4. Jennifer Aniston
5. Brad Pitt
6. Luke Wilson
7. Owen Wilson
List 6 of your favorite foods...
1. Tacos
2. French Fries
3. Vern Haneys Chicken Tenders
4. My moms soup
5. Hashbrowns
6. fettachini alfredo
List 5 of your favorite Resturants...
1. Qdoba
2. Olive Garden
3. TGI Fridays
4. Verns.
5. Nationals
List 4 of your favorite tv shows...
1. Degrassi
2. Newlyweds
3. RFR
4. Daria
List 3 places that he could touch to make you melt...
1. My face
2. my sides( by my stomach)
3. My hand
List 2 of your favorite Places...
1. Florida
2. Myrtle Beach
What is your favorite/ lucky #?
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| stupid little love song |
[29 Feb 2004|06:23pm] |
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blah...thats how i feel. i wanna be excited. i wanna be groaped (sp?) i wanna be the object of your undying affection. i looooooove public displays of affection. they let everyone know that you are crazy about eachother. so if there arent any public displays does that mean you arent crazy?? gosh i wish boys would just stop being dumb. i want attention. maybe if i was liek a drug to him he would liek me more. do you guys think drugs are cool? attractive? i dont. people do drugs because they wanna have fun but they dont even try to have fun without them. in my opinion people who take drugs are just unsure of their true personalitys so they change who they are to somebody they know everyone will like. and if everyone is so unsure and doing the same thing it becomes a cycle and everyone does everything the same goddamn way. people who do drugs disappoint me. i feel bad for them. i would rather be naturally sad or depressed then unnaturally or temporarilly happy. its not who you are.
Sometimes I give in to sadness
Sometimes I don't
At times I'm part of the madness
Sometimes I won't
Give in to you
You see in a way
I have been drifting down a river
To nowhere
And you've given me nothing
But if you're ready to be my everything
If you're ready to see it through this time
And if you're ready for love then
This I will bring
But I'm not gonna wait for you forever this time
Ladeeda ayo
ladadayo ladeeda
At times I feel myself smiling
At times I'm not
Doo doo doo doo
Yeah yay
What's with the guilt that you styling baby
Talk don't look good on you
You see in a way
I have been looking for a reason to go there
And you're leading me nowhere
And if you're ready to be my everything
If you're ready to see it through this time
And if you're ready for love then
This I will bring
But I'm not gonna wait for you forever this time
Ladeeda ayo
ladadayo ladeeda
Are you waiting for a special occasion
To give me your heart
Cause I need a little confirmation
To make a real start
Don't wait till it's too late
Are you ready to show me?
Are you ready to love me?
You see in a way
I have been drifting down a river
To nowhere
And you're giving me nothing
And if you're ready to be my everything
If you're ready to see it through this time
And if you're ready for love then
This I will bring
But I'm not gonna wait for you forever this time
And if you're ready to be
Ready to be my everything
And if you're ready to see it through this time
If you're ready for love then baby
This I will bring
But I'm not gonna wait forever this time
ladayo ladadayo ladeeda
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6keep lieing - i'm beautiful.
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| dont hold your breath you'll only make things worse. |
[25 Feb 2004|03:00pm] |
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well...thank you to everyone who said happy birthday it made me smile...and i needed to smile. i hope i go to the movies or do something with bridgette. ryan has school allll day. everyone is gone. my dad is at work, susan is at work, cory just left, my mom is at the hospital with her mom, regan is at her house. i wonder what shes doing. i wonder if she knows its my birthday. i can see rated r movies...only one here til i can buy porn. how exciting. well im gonna go get ready maybe if im ready soemthing with happen. bye y'all!
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| "happy" birthday |
[24 Feb 2004|11:43pm] |
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happy...hahahahahah...lmfao..i wish..i wish it could have been okay or fine..no it was down right shitty..it was horrible and its not even my birthday yet..but there is no way im waking up tomarrow with a smile on my face..there is no present taht could possible make me feel good..not atleast any material present..i just want to be special.i wanna be the center of attention. iwant everyone to stop and go hey its ur birthday. happy birthday. but i know that wont happen so im jsut disappointed already. i wish iwas little and when it was ur birthday everyone was all excited and made a big deal and you had birthday partys instead of getting money. and all you wanted to do was play and open presents and eat cake..i dont give a shit about presents or cake..i wanna play and have fun.. i want everyone else to have fun to. i want someone to make me feel good. and by someone i mean my knight in shining armor. i want him to think im as cool as other things i want him to be high on my love and i want taht to be good enough. but i guess i will never be.. so ill just sit by my lonely stupid self adn sing me happy birthday. goodnight.
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2keep lieing - i'm beautiful.
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| 5% of the time when someone is "just kidding" they are. |
[24 Feb 2004|08:06pm] |
She said
"don't, don't let it go to your head
Boys like you are a dime a dozen,
Boys like you are a dime a dozen"
She said
"you're a touch overrated,
you're a lush and I hate it
but these grass stains on my knees
they won't mean a thing"
And all I (all I)
Need to know (need to know)
Is that I'm somethin you'll be missin
(is that I'm somethin that you're missin)
(maybe I should hate for this)
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that far
(maybe I should hate for this)
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that...
I'd never lie to you
Unless I had to
I'll do what I got to
Unless I had to
I'll do what I got to, the truth
is you could slit my throat
And with my one last gasping breath
I'd apologize for bleedin on your shirt
And all I (all I)
Need to know (need to know)
Is that I'm somethin you'll be missin
(is that I'm somethin that you're missin)
(maybe I should hate for this)
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that far
(maybe I should hate for this)
Maybe I should hate you for this
Never really did ever quite get that...
Cause I'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions
This'll be last chance you get to drop my name
Cause I'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions
This'll be last chance you get to drop my name
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar
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2keep lieing - i'm beautiful.
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[19 Feb 2004|06:59pm] |
You can use ONE BAND/ARTIST, and fill in the blanks with only titles of the songs from that band/artist.
Band/Artist: The All-American Rejects
Are you female or male:: Her Name Rhymes With Mindy
Describe yourself:: Pillsbury Doughgirl
How do some people feel about you:: Girl Of My Dreams
How do you feel about yourself:: She Mannequin
Describe your ex girlfriend/boyfriend:: One More Sad Song
Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend/crush:: Time Stands Still
Describe where you want to be:: Happy Endings
Describe what you want to be:: Your Star
Describe how you live:: Why Worry
Describe how you love:: Don't Leave Me
Share a few words of wisdom:: Drive Away
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i'm beautiful.
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| why'd you have to go and make things so complicated? |
[17 Feb 2004|12:51am] |
i like blink 182
i like kissing
i like cuddling
i like beer
i like getting so drunk i wanna smoke
i like shopping
i like thrift stores
i like dashboard confessional
i like dirty dancing
i like having a watch
i like angry nerd rock
i like doodling
i like the stickers ryan put on my mirror
i like being in love
i like having a niece
i like going to high school
i like dreaming
i like when all the lights are off
i like when its summer
i like bubble baths
i like being fondled
i like did i say beer?
i like being silly
i like when tom says 'yead'
i like new york city
i like myrtle beach
i like u the way u r when we're driving in ur car
i like velvetta shells and cheese
i like split pea soup
i like alan wroblewski
i like tom delong
i like craig from degrassi
i like orlando bloom
i like kissing
i like kissing
i like kissing
i like kissing
i like kissing
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4keep lieing - i'm beautiful.
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[16 Feb 2004|06:40pm] |
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how do you make your journal friends only...cuz i wanna make it that too..cuz i hate it when people read this and they shouldnt..im not gonna censor my entries becasue 'someone' might read them and think badly..fuck them...
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i'm beautiful.
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| how important is your livejournal to you??? |
[16 Feb 2004|06:37pm] |
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well last night me and my bf got in yet another fight about my livejournal. and he wants me to quit writing in it because he says it makes me look bad...well as a trade for me quitting lj..he has to quit smoking "something" do you guys think that is a fair trade?! i dunno we will see if he keeps up his end..i will talk to you guys later...love you all have fun!!!!
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2keep lieing - i'm beautiful.
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| if you cant let it be, might as well make it bleed... |
[16 Feb 2004|12:21pm] |
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interesting stuff has been happening these days. and it is resulting in my parents going to chicago until thursday. thats sweet becasue i cant stand them being here. my dad is mad at my mom becasue he got in a fight with my sisters fiancee and my mom stayed out of it and he thinks that she was on my sisters side. so now he says he is moving out becasue he wants a divorce. but my mom. being the major weak dependent (i wonder where i get if from) person she is crawled back saying how sorry she was. when she has nothign to be sorry for. so now they are going to "reconcile" on a lil trip. i really dont care if he leaves. if it didtn hurt my mom i would be okay with it. it just hurts me to see my mom cry. and now my dad is not talking to my sister and we might not go to her wedding in the bahamas becasue my dad bought the tickets and if he doesnt go then we cant. but ill work for the 500 dollars to see my sister get married. she has been more liek a mom to me my whole life and if i had to pick between her and my father i woudl pick her.
but neways...
i am so happy we have vacation. this weekend was okay. friday we partied at anthonys then swung by david harms..haha lmao..it was funny liek nobody but us was there and then ricco and chris came by and left cuz it was all guys..so we stayed for like 5-10 then went back to anthonys. he made me this bad ass drink..haha..nobody else really liked it but thougth it tasted like sour starburst and it got my fucked up. it had apple pucker, vodka, hot damn, and bacardi limon in it...mmmmm...
saturday me adn ryan rented some movies and just watched em at his house then we went to alexs adn then to this get togetehr with alexs friend matt and it was gay so we just went to nick poulens house then back to ryans...
yesterday was a lazy lazy day. ryan is the sleepiest person i know. i wish it was summer so we could go play at the park. i liek playing at the park its fun.
i hope this week lasts forever adn my parents leave lots of money...
love you all xoxoxo
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[14 Feb 2004|07:07pm] |
craigs my boyfriend...if i was on degrassi..but im not so RYANS MY BOYFRIEND!
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